Sunday, February 2, 2014
The Meaning behind Fat to Happy
I guess it's pretty self explanatory, but really, it's kinda not (yup, going for depth tonight). When I entered my very first post, I told a little bit about myself and where I started from (you can see that here). But what does it truly mean to go from Fat to Happy? I have felt fat for a long time now. It's who I am, and I would laugh about it and joke around, but inside, I hated myself for it. It wasn't a fast rise, but more of a gradual increase over the years... never more than 10 or 15 pounds a year (like what, 2 to 3 pounds or so a month?). Doesn't sound like much, but over the course of 8 years? Yeah.... sucks some fat booty.
But I saw this picture (posted above), and at first, I really didn't pay much attention to it. It was Truth as I saw it, but what was I going to do about it? I was fat. I was unhappy. I was whatever about everything. Then, right before Christmas 2013, I saw it again. I'd had kind of a breakdown, and was really tired of the way things were. I realized that this was part of my problem! I'm letting this ick define who I am. And guess what? I didn't like it. That's not who I am! I'm a mom, a wife, a cook, I am a great shot with a weapon (target practice only), I'm a nerd, and so much, much more. But I'm not fat. I have fat.
And at that moment, sitting on the couch crying my eyes out, I realized that change is definitely more than possible. It was going to happen. I searched online and found the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans, and through their website, I found their Facebook page, and I couldn't have been more ecstatic. To find a great group of supportive women who have been there, and won't judge, won't trash talk, only help and lift each other up... wow! I'm feel truly blessed to have found that group.
So for me, the first change was a mental adjustment. I'm not fat, I have fat. But I am unhappy. So what do I need to do to get happy? I need to make positive changes to myself and my surroundings. I made quite a few changes in January, but kind of fell off the proverbial wagon halfway through. I picked myself back up (hell, nobody is perfect) and I'm ready for February.
My goals are to do the Back on Pointe exercises, ( I did do it today!) which kicked my ass... I would suggest not trying to do them right after eating... my bad! lol
I'm also going to blog everyday to keep myself accountable. They won't be this long I'm sure, but this post was weighing on my mind.
I'm also going to follow Desiree's example and start an exercise streak (don't worry, no nekkid-ness or anything like that) which, from what I understand (and I might not lol) is that you do something for 30 days. I believe she's doing a mile a day in one go, not like what accumulates on a pedometer or activity monitor throughout the day. I think I too shall do a mile a day (starting tomorrow, since today is pretty much over.)
Speaking of 30 day challenges, Andy is also doing one where she's cutting sweets. I believe I will do that as well. I've pretty much done it, but the occasional (and sometimes binge splurge) sweet has happened. I will prevail!
So, at the start of the month here are my stats:
Weight:185.6 (lost 5.6 in January)
Let's hope all those numbers go down by March 1st!!!