Thursday, December 18, 2014

Taking a little break....

Wow... so goals? Out the window... Diet? Same.... Sanity? Yup, that's gone too. 

This holiday season has just been dragging at me. So much stress. And you know what my comfort object is? Sugar. *Sigh* This is not, I repeat, NOT me quitting my diet. This is just me taking a small break, where I do not stress out about the number of carbs I'm eating, because frankly, I do not need another thing to think about right now. 

Please do not get me wrong. The diet I follow is not hard, at all. I just use more brain power making sure I make good choices. I do not have that brain power to spare right now. 

So. I will be back on the 1st. I will still keep my fat ass off the scale (Laura, I'm looking at you on this!) and will report back, refreshed and better than ever. I will have my exercise plan in hand, and I'll be back on my diet. I'm looking forward to 2015, guys, and I hope you are too!

As always, I thank my wonderfully supportive ladies for being the awesome people they are!

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Let's just call this "Sadly failed Saturday," shall we?

Oh man, oh man!! Have I just really failed all my goals this week or what? I totally meant to post on Wednesday, but I had to take my mom shopping and that literally took ALL DAY. So I then meant to do it Thursday (my birthday), but I had to take my mom out again. That, too, took ALL DAY. I don't even know what happened to Friday. But I need to get my ass back on track (in more ways than one).

So, let's just cut to the chase, shall we? Because, frankly, I'm at a loss for this whole week, and I need to get my shit together and form a better plan. One that I can be more consistent with.

Blog: 2 times to get back into the swing of things. (Fail!)
Vlog: Film 3 videos, and post at least twice a week. (Fail! But in my defense, I usually do these on my days off... so I'm going to work on some tomorrow... but I only posted once last week.)
Book: *New Goal: Start a new book and get at least 6 chapters read. (Fail!! Will get on it this week)
Diet: No more cheating, back on track. Track with MFP at least 4 days this week. (I have decided to remove this from my goals. I will come up with something else though, for this area. What could I do instead?)
Fitness: Try to get 8000 steps a day, even on my off days. (Failed...again. I'm starting to think these goals are not good for me lol.)

Weight: Unknown. I started a new challenge, and can't weigh til the 1st of January. I'M DYING and it's only day 6. Ugh!

What are some goals that you work on? 

Monday, December 1, 2014

31 Days to Insanity

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So... I might have mentioned before... I weigh myself every day. Sometimes twice or even three times a day. It's a sickness. I'm even aware of it. But it's something that I always feel compelled to do. It's been driving me crazy here lately. I usually do it to measure my progress, and see if I might need to change things. 

Here's the thing though... I have been in the 160's since July. I'm not really sure what's up with that, but I stalled out, and then it took forever for the scale to slowly move down... then up... then down... grrrr.... so frustrating

And the thing about the scale that's killing me? I think when I see that I've been stalled for a few days, I just get frustrated and cheat on my diet (i.e. I eat a massive amount of carbs). Then I gain a few pounds of water weight, and then I drop down again... and the cycle starts again. 

Why am I telling you this?? Because Laura, one of my bestest best friends, instigated a challenge this month. No scale. None. Hide it, get rid of it, loan it to a friend... but absolutely no weighing til January 1st. 

I'm seriously freaking the fuck out.

But I will do this. Why? Because I'm becoming way too obsessed with this number that is only one small definition of who I am. So. Here is my weight, and measurements, and then I'm done until the first of January. I can do this. That little machine has no power over me.

Weight: 167.2
Bust: 39
Waist: 32.5
Hips: 40.5
Thighs: Right- 20.25  Left- 20.25

Alright. So this is what I have going on right now. So far, since I started measuring, I have lost 22.25 inches off my total body. That's pretty freaking impressive. I never thought I would be at this point. Hell, I never thought I would try and stay with a diet this long. Figured I would be back to being fat and unhappy and trying to think up a New Year's Resolution I might stick with. Well, dammit, I stuck with this one. 

Now I'm going to hide my scale. Are you brave enough to do the same?