Wednesday, March 26, 2014

The time has come....

"The time has come," the Walrus said,
"To talk of many things:
Of shoes—and ships—and sealing-wax—
Of cabbages—and kings—
And why the sea is boiling hot—
And whether pigs have wings."
I am not sure why, but this quote has been stuck in my head. I've been thinking a lot about my blog lately, and that I might want to do a little more with it than just my weight loss journey. Don't get me wrong! This is the whole reason I started the blog to begin with, and it will still be the main theme. But I'm also wanting to add things... recipes, pictures, crafts maybe? I'm not sure. But the name of the blog is Fat to HAPPY... and I would like to share things that make me happy. So that's the plan... I will start to add to the blog once in a while, when the mood strikes. Because I like variety dammit.
So, back to the weight loss part, now that I've said that, I'm stuck! Help! LOL Geez! I had my weekend off (which I get every other weekend) and it seems like if it wasn't nailed down, I ate it! We had fast food about 3 times I think, and I also ate a bunch of candy. Did I mention I made cupcakes for poker on Saturday, and ate a few (okay probably 4) of those? Let's add on top of that the fact that I'm out of my water pill. Wonderful.
I also discovered something about myself, something to add to my ever growing list of weirdness. I am too self conscious to exercise.... what?? Yeah I know how stupid that sounds. Like really, really stupid. But it's true. I could be at home, totally alone, no windows open where someone could see in, and I'm still too self conscious to work out! I think that's why I haven't' actually started walking too... because I don't want to be seen outside. Someone save me from myself, I swear. And I think, even acknowledging that, it's not going to help. I don't think a work out buddy would be beneficial either, because I would constantly be comparing what I can (or more likely can't) do with them.
So what do I do? I haven't figured that out yet, but I have to do something. I'm destroying myself and I know it's stupid, but I can't seem to help it.


  1. They say the hardest step is the first one out the door! Not sure how to do it but you just have to dig down and have a couple of really good walks or just ease into something at home. Once you start seeing some results by adding in that exercise, you may get more comfortable with it! Good luck!

    P.S. Do you track your food? That was an eye opener for me to see where all my calories were going!

    1. I do track my food, and I've gotten much better about what goes in my face... but when it comes to exercise, I just feel like a goober and get all weird with myself and that's just not good. Thanks! I'm going to work on it this week! Tulsa actually has a comicon in November and I would like to look good for it! (I know it won't be "Leia in slave girl costume" good, but you know).

  2. I have those weekends too... too often! And why don't we nail food down? It would be a helpful diet type!!