Um... Wow... It's Been A While Huh?

 I'm in the "ugly" phase....

So, I have been seriously unmotivated here lately... I mean... waaaaay unmotivated. I will do good to follow my diet for a few days, and then boom.... off the rails again. It's time to be completely honest now. I haven't been on my game since late July. Yeah... I said it. July. That's a little over 7 months (because I can't pinpoint when it actually happened). How sad is that??? 

I can kinda pinpoint the cause though... See, I was doing so good with my LCHF diet. I mean super good. I followed it to the letter. I lost weight (and inches).... life was good. Then someone suggested I do Carb Nite Solution. I talked about my experience after it happened, here. But the basic principal of the Carb Nite Solution was this: you eat super low carb 6 days a week, and on the 7th day, in the last half of the day, you bombard yourself with carbs. There's "science" behind this, and some people make it work. I was not one of them. Again, I followed the diet to the letter, but nothing. Not only did I not lose anything doing this, but I also stopped losing altogether. I had been so freaking proud to get into the 160's, and then bam... stuck. 

Why is that where it all went sideways? Well, I hadn't had carbs in 3 months... then suddenly I ate a bunch of them.... once a week for 4 weeks. That did me no favors. My body craved it... and I think that's why I still haven't been able to get on track now. And honestly, my lack of motivation doesn't help. Let's not completely fool myself, eh?

What does this mean? Well, I'm off work this Friday-Sunday, so I'm going to recommit. I'm going back to what I did last May, when I first started, and was successful. My husband is going to (kinda) do this with me, and has promised to keep temptation away. I think this will be good for me. I also think I'm going to start taking food to work with me, so I'm not tempted by all the goodies there. It's time to get my shit together, and stop messing around. 

Thanks for reading! I know it's been forever, and I'm sorry. This is part of my recommitment, and also taping and posting for my youtube channel as well. It's going to take time, but I've got to do this. I would like to be at my goal weight by my birthday (12/4) so we will see what I can do.

Oh What a Year!

What a year this has been, huh? I went back and read some of the posts from the beginning of 2014, and while I didn't really achieve all the goals I wanted to, I also came so much farther than I ever thought I would. Honestly, I figured I would give up after Easter, when I pretty much hit "rock bottom." But, instead of throwing in the towel, I actually started trying (what a concept, huh?) and started slowly losing weight. Then I started my LCHF diet and actually started losing some serious weight. 

I don't know if I mentioned it on the blog, but I started doing this "Carb Nite Solution" during the summer, and (while it works for some) it completely frakked up everything I had accomplished. I had gotten down to 169.8 in July, and was so excited to be in the 160's. Guess what? Starting with the CNS, I stayed in the 160's as I made one bad decision after another. It was always just a little cheat here, or a little nibble there (ok... a big nibbles) and while it was never enough to make me gain, I sure as shit wasn't losing either. So in December, after all my attempts to be good during the holidays were smashed down with the invisible hammer of temptation, I just gave up for the month. 

I posted on the first of December that I weighed 167.2. Keeping in mind, in July is when I first broke into the 160's, I knew I had to do something. So I didn't weigh for the whole month, I ate whatever the hell I wanted (i.e. candy, breads, potatoes.... carbage). I am happy to report, that through all of that, I came out yesterday to the scale and it was at 168.4. I can handle a 1.2 lb gain. I'm okay with that, really. I have been floating up and down within the same 5 lbs for months... so it was no big deal, and I kinda enjoyed myself over the holidays. I will say this though, my acne came back, I got an ulcer, and I was tired all the time. So, while I enjoyed eating the things I hadn't eaten in a long while, I also payed for it. Dearly.

But! For the year, I lost 22.8 lbs, and about 25 inches from all over. I would say that's not bad since I almost quit. :D

So! Now I'm back on track, and ready to start the next adventure. I joined an unofficial Diet bet (basically you don't have to pay any money, because I'm a broke bitch), where basically you try to lose 4% of your body weight in 4 weeks. Now, if you do a real Diet Bet, you put money on the line. If you win, you stand to gain some cash. If you don't then you lose it. I don't have money to lose! That's why I'm doing a free one lol.

So! Here's to a new year, with new(ish) goals! Hope you all have a great year too!

Taking a little break....

Wow... so goals? Out the window... Diet? Same.... Sanity? Yup, that's gone too. 

This holiday season has just been dragging at me. So much stress. And you know what my comfort object is? Sugar. *Sigh* This is not, I repeat, NOT me quitting my diet. This is just me taking a small break, where I do not stress out about the number of carbs I'm eating, because frankly, I do not need another thing to think about right now. 

Please do not get me wrong. The diet I follow is not hard, at all. I just use more brain power making sure I make good choices. I do not have that brain power to spare right now. 

So. I will be back on the 1st. I will still keep my fat ass off the scale (Laura, I'm looking at you on this!) and will report back, refreshed and better than ever. I will have my exercise plan in hand, and I'll be back on my diet. I'm looking forward to 2015, guys, and I hope you are too!

As always, I thank my wonderfully supportive ladies for being the awesome people they are!

Let's just call this "Sadly failed Saturday," shall we?

Oh man, oh man!! Have I just really failed all my goals this week or what? I totally meant to post on Wednesday, but I had to take my mom shopping and that literally took ALL DAY. So I then meant to do it Thursday (my birthday), but I had to take my mom out again. That, too, took ALL DAY. I don't even know what happened to Friday. But I need to get my ass back on track (in more ways than one).

So, let's just cut to the chase, shall we? Because, frankly, I'm at a loss for this whole week, and I need to get my shit together and form a better plan. One that I can be more consistent with.

Blog: 2 times to get back into the swing of things. (Fail!)
Vlog: Film 3 videos, and post at least twice a week. (Fail! But in my defense, I usually do these on my days off... so I'm going to work on some tomorrow... but I only posted once last week.)
Book: *New Goal: Start a new book and get at least 6 chapters read. (Fail!! Will get on it this week)
Diet: No more cheating, back on track. Track with MFP at least 4 days this week. (I have decided to remove this from my goals. I will come up with something else though, for this area. What could I do instead?)
Fitness: Try to get 8000 steps a day, even on my off days. (Failed...again. I'm starting to think these goals are not good for me lol.)

Weight: Unknown. I started a new challenge, and can't weigh til the 1st of January. I'M DYING and it's only day 6. Ugh!

What are some goals that you work on? 

31 Days to Insanity

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So... I might have mentioned before... I weigh myself every day. Sometimes twice or even three times a day. It's a sickness. I'm even aware of it. But it's something that I always feel compelled to do. It's been driving me crazy here lately. I usually do it to measure my progress, and see if I might need to change things. 

Here's the thing though... I have been in the 160's since July. I'm not really sure what's up with that, but I stalled out, and then it took forever for the scale to slowly move down... then up... then down... grrrr.... so frustrating! 

And the thing about the scale that's killing me? I think when I see that I've been stalled for a few days, I just get frustrated and cheat on my diet (i.e. I eat a massive amount of carbs). Then I gain a few pounds of water weight, and then I drop down again... and the cycle starts again. 

Why am I telling you this?? Because Laura, one of my bestest best friends, instigated a challenge this month. No scale. None. Hide it, get rid of it, loan it to a friend... but absolutely no weighing til January 1st. 

I'm seriously freaking the fuck out.

But I will do this. Why? Because I'm becoming way too obsessed with this number that is only one small definition of who I am. So. Here is my weight, and measurements, and then I'm done until the first of January. I can do this. That little machine has no power over me.

12/1/14
Weight: 167.2
Bust: 39
Waist: 32.5
Arms:10
Hips: 40.5
Thighs: Right- 20.25  Left- 20.25

Alright. So this is what I have going on right now. So far, since I started measuring, I have lost 22.25 inches off my total body. That's pretty freaking impressive. I never thought I would be at this point. Hell, I never thought I would try and stay with a diet this long. Figured I would be back to being fat and unhappy and trying to think up a New Year's Resolution I might stick with. Well, dammit, I stuck with this one. 

Now I'm going to hide my scale. Are you brave enough to do the same?

Weigh In Wednesday (Two Days Late)

Hey guys!

Hope everyone (that celebrates) had a fantastic Thanksgiving! I know I did! I love making plans.... because then I break them, and wonder why I tried in the first place... lol. But at least I kept it in mind! And honestly, I didn't do too bad. I had turkey and deviled eggs, stuffing (regular, just a little bit), roasted potatoes (just a little), real potato salad (mom made me feel bad, and I had a moment of weakness), and green bean casserole (not terrible carb-wise). All in all, I could have definitely made better choices, but you know what? I decided that it would only be one day, and I got right back on plan today. 

That is the amazing thing about knowing what you want to do with your goals... you can keep yourself in check just a bit better.

As for goals:

Blog: 2 times to get back into the swing of things. (I did this, but also missed my Wednesday update... but dang it, I wasn't home hardly at all that day.)
Vlog: Film 3 videos, and post at least twice a week. You can check out my YouTube channel here! (I did better! I actually filmed 5 videos, but lost one... figured out my mistake, so I won't do that again. I think I only posted 1 though. I know I can do better this week.)
Book: I really miss reading! I need to start a new book. (Not only did I get halfway through the book, I finished it!! I think I had it finished by Sunday actually! Jason and I had a rare day where we just sat and read in quiet. Loved it! *New Goal: Start a new book and get at least 6 chapters read.

 Diet: No more cheating, back on track. Track with MFP at least 4 days this week.(I have decided to remove this from my goals. As I said last week, I just don't keep up with it like I should. I will come up with something else though, for this area)
Fitness: Try to get 8000 steps a day, even on my off days. (Failed... On my days off, it's either been really way to cold to move around, or I've been extremely busy. I will try better this week.)

Wednesday Weigh-In: 165.8 

While I'm not happy at all with this weight, I am not truly at fault for this. First of all, it was before Thanksgiving, and I didn't cheat once. Second, I hurt my back really bad at work on Saturday, and had to take a steroid. It made my weight change within 2 days. Also made me sick as hell, so I quit taking it. I'm sure the weight will even out again soon. 

So, what with my one day of Thanksgiving madness out of the way, I'm hoping to be better behaved for the rest of the week. We will see what happens to my weight then.

Hope you all have a great week!

P.S. Guess what I found at my Dollar Tree?? So excited!

Really? So close already?

Image from ruthtobias.com (yes, I believe that is bacon on the turkey, and that is okay with me)

Is it just me... or did you know that the end of the year is like RIGHT THERE? Did it sneak up on anyone else, or am I the only oblivious person out here? 

Like, Thanksgiving is in 2 days..... did you just hear me? TWO DAYS!!! 

This is the time of year that we need to be extremely diligent with our diets. My plan? Well, since I'm following a low carb/high fat diet, I will enjoy the hell out of some turkey. Then I am making alternative side dishes so I can enjoy, like cauliflower faux-tatoes, some coconut flour pop-overs, cauliflower faux-tato salad, and SF cheesecake fluff. I will still be making all my fully carby stuff for the rest of the family to enjoy, but I will not give in to temptation. I don't want to be side tracked, and I sure as hell don't want to be fat anymore. So I will stick with it, and make it through. I learned my lesson at Easter (of course, I wasn't lchf then, but still).

So what are you going to do? What is your plan? If you go into the holidays with a plan, you stand a better chance of sticking with your goals. Just saying.... 

I Could Eat This Every Day

Oh my gosh! I could seriously eat this every day! What am I talking about? TACO SALAD of course! Why? This is a super versatile meal, that you can change at any time. You can make it with almost any meat, and you can keep several of the ingredients on hand (you probably already do!) How do I make mine?

The meat is usually seasoned hamburger, but I'll do chicken or pork if I have it on hand. Then I toss in lettuce, tomato, cheese, sour cream, salsa and avocado. You could add onions, cilantro, peppers... the list is literally endless... you can do as much or as little as you want. I absolutely love this meal!

What about you? What could you eat every day?

Weigh In Wednesday

Hey there everyone! Can you believe that I'm actually sticking with the blog (so far lol). I'm excited! I love seeing myself stick with something, especially with what happened this weekend (more below). The holidays seem to be more and more stressful for me every year, and it doesn't help that my ex-husband has decided to pull some douchey shit with me, and it's got me just a basket full of crazy right now. 

So, I will stay accountable, I will stay connected, and I will get through this.

On to the goals!

Blog: 2 times to get back into the swing of things. (I did 3... if you count the Wednesday update. Super happy!)
Vlog: Film 3 videos, and post at least twice a week. Seems like Monday's and Thursdays are good days. You can check out my YouTube channel here! (Ugh... not so good here... didn't film or post anything this week! I started one video, and it just wasn't working out. I'm hoping next week will be better.)
Book: I really miss reading! I need to start a new book. (Started a book! How to Seduce a Vampire (Without Really Trying). It's the latest in a long running series by author Kerrelyn Sparks. I'm about 88 pages in.) *New Goal: Get half-way through my book by next Wednesday.
Diet: No more cheating, back on track. Track with MFP at least 4 days this week. (Failed.... I might actually take this off my goals, because I just find tracking sooo tedious. I know what I need to eat (and what I don't). I will debate on this, this week.
Fitness: Try to find some good core exercises that won't hurt the hell out of my back. I'm going to wait until after the first of the year to do anything very hard core... so I will stock pile, try things out, find out what works, and get ready for the 1st of Jan. (Still looking up lots of stuff. Some of it looks pretty hard, but I can progress up too it.) *New Goal: Try to get 8000 steps a day, even on my off days. 

Wednesday Weigh-In: 164 
I cheated this weekend.... like the whole freaking weekend. I need to stop doing this, because I'm just making it harder on myself. I had burgers with buns, fries, cookies, junk at work.... oh the humanity! 

But I'm back on track, and I hope to drop that number to one lower than last week. :) Here's hoping!

Hope you all have a great week!

Coffee or Tea? (Or both??)

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There are so many people who prefer coffee over tea, and vice versa. But personally? I think they both have a place in your diet, hell, just in your life. Forget diet. If you want to see how awesome it is, you can check here, here, here, and here. So we know that tea and coffee is awesome. Which is my favorite? 

Actually, both. They both have their place in my life. In the morning, I love to have a cup of coffee before work. Gives me the boost of energy I need at 4 am (who wouldn't need a boost of energy at 4am? Seriously). And then I drink tea and water through out the rest of the day. Honestly, more tea than water... but tea is made from water, so.........

When I have my coffee, I drink it with heavy whipping cream and sugar free syrup. I wouldn't drink it if it actually tasted like coffee, eww gross. My tea, I drink iced with splenda in it. Please, I know what you might say... Splenda is bad, blah blah blah... no worse than that Diet Coke you are chugging... Sorry. 

So which do you prefer? How do you drink it? Hot, cold, or somewhere in between? Do you doctor it up with syrups and creams, or are you a purist when it comes to your drink?

What Happened to the Journey?

Hey guys... so I don't know if you have really noticed or not, but I haven't posted lately about my progress to Mordor with Frodo and Sam. There is a perfectly valid reason for this. First, I got a new phone, so I forgot to write down what my old one tracked (it had a pedometer in it). Second, the new phone died after a month, so that was a months worth of steps that I lost. Third, While I was waiting for a new phone, I used the old phone again, and now it has crashed, losing that week or so that it tracked. Fourth, I forget to sit down and write it down every day (this one is all me). 

So, I'm currently in a holding patteren. I haven't given up though. I am going to probably sit down and figure out what I can this weekend. But you know, with all though lost days, it's going to be inaccurate. Oh well... I'll do what I can!

Thanks!!

Weigh In Wednesday and More...

Hey guys! So, last week I set goals.... did I accomplish them? No... not really. UGH! But at least I set them, and I am aware of them... and I will be doing something to change that. I do have a few excuses (to make me not feel so bad lol).

So, here's my last weeks goals:
Blog: 2 times to get back into the swing of things. Maybe a recipe once a week? But I want to post on Wednesday's... Maybe a weigh in Wednesday like Desiree over at Finding the Skinny Geek Within? (So here it is, Wednesday... At least I got half my goal done.)
Vlog: Film 3 videos, and post at least twice a week. Seems like Monday's and Thursdays are good days. You can check out my YouTube channel here! (I started filming 2 different videos, but the final products were awful... and I just won't share those... because I want to share things people can actually make and eat. I didn't post anything either, because the other phone that I was using while my new one was in transit has crashed along with a few saved videos. So starting from scratch, again.)
Book: I really miss reading! I need to start a new book (I have several to choose from) (So... I started P.C. Cast's book Goddess of the Sea... but I was reading it on my old phone... which I just mentioned has crashed... so now I've lost all progress on that. I'll have to start again.)
Diet: No more cheating, back on track. Track with MFP at least 4 days this week (I only had one cheat, and it wasn't like I had a choice... I was at work (Kitchen) where we were making steak fingers, mashed potatoes and some disgusting veggy... So I ended up eating the steak fingers and a tiny bit of mashed potatoes... but luckily I kept the rest of my day good, so I didn't blow it. And as for tracking, I tracked 1 full day, and am tracking today... I need to do better with this.)
Fitness: Try to find some good core exercises that won't hurt the hell out of my back. I'm going to wait until after the first of the year to do anything very hard core... so I will stock pile, try things out, find out what works, and get ready for the 1st of Jan. (So I found a couple of good yoga tutorials and an awesome website that makes "fan-based" type work outs... I love it... I can't wait to get started after the first of the year.... Yes, I'm going to wait.)

So let's talk about Weigh In Wednesday... Last week I weighed in at 167. This week, I'm so excited, because I weighed in at 162.6!! I'm exactly 20 lbs down from when I started doing LCHF (low carb/high fat). It works faster for some... this took me 6 months... but who cares? It's fraking gone, and never coming back! 

Also, I'm only 1.4 lbs away from losing a grand total of 30 lbs since the first of the year!! I never actually thought I would make it this far...I figured I would start, but then when I got bored, or didn't get INSTANT results, I would give up like I always used to. But I stuck with it, and BAM!! How awesome! I couldn't have done it without all the friends I've made online this year!

Temptation, Thy Name Is.....

Bitch. Your name is BITCH. That's all I have to say to you. Ugh! Why, Temptation??? Why?! Why must you rear your ugly head, when all I want to do is be good, and be successful? But there you are... seductive, tantalizing, taunting... (shit, I could write a romance novel lol). 

So, as you may or may not know, Halloween was just a few days ago. And temptation (along with a severe dose of stress) kicked into high gear and whooped my ass. As it stands, I still have a massive quantity of Halloween candy at my house, but I only gave in the one day. I bought so much for trick-or-treaters... that didn't even show up. The nerve. But, what's a girl to do? First? Give in and have several pieces... because stress and temptation are two sides to an evil coin. But second? I gave a ton of it away to a coworker whose kids didn't get to do much trick-or-treating due to her youngest getting sick. Next? Push it on hubby... what?? He's not the one on a diet (no matter how much he should be). Also? Give to the kids (sparingly... don't want anyone throwing up). 

SO here's what I have decided to do. I really like what Karen over at Adipose Diet has been doing with weekly goals... it's simple, but each week, you can look back and see how you did. And you know, imitation is the sincerest form of flattery (or something like that). So, without further ado!


Blog: 2 times to get back into the swing of things. Maybe a recipe once a week? But I want to post on Wednesday's... Maybe a weigh in Wednesday like Desiree over at Finding the Skinny Geek Within?
Vlog: Film 3 videos, and post at least twice a week. Seems like Monday's and Thursdays are good days. You can check out my YouTube channel here!
Book: I really miss reading! I need to start a new book (I have several to choose from)
Diet: No more cheating, back on track. Track with MFP at least 4 days this week
Fitness: Try to find some good core exercises that won't hurt the hell out of my back. I'm going to wait until after the first of the year to do anything very hard core... so I will stock pile, try things out, find out what works, and get ready for the 1st of Jan.

Wednesday Weigh-In: 167 (just in case I decide to keep this up).

What's a Girl to Do?

Good morning guys!

If you have been with me since the beginning (if you have, thank you so much!) then you know that I have been through a constant struggle with exercise. I could walk around town, I could exercise in my living room, I could go to the high school track and walk/job and flip a tire (didn't know they had that until the other day!) or many other things. But I don't, I haven't and it bothers me. I've lost close to 30 lbs. I should be feeling good enough to start doing something. 

Ain't that the truth??

Want to know a secret? I'm so lazy. Oh my good gracious, am I lazy! I have so many friends (Karen and Desiree are my two biggest inspirations as far as working out goes) that bust their ass as often as they can, and are getting out there and DOING IT! What do I do? I cheer them on! I love these ladies, and I want them to be happy and succeed in their efforts. Then what do I do? I sit in front of the TV and be lazy. 

Why am I telling you this? Won't this affect the way you view me? Well, first of all, I seriously hope not! But I'm hoping to hear how you get motivated! I will say this... I'm motivated to do something up to the point of actually doing it lol. I need to know, what is that OOMPH! that gets you off the couch and doing something? 

I would like to be at my goal weight by my anniversary which is in March... I only have about 20 lbs(ish) more to lose, And I think this will help... but I need a push. Tell me what makes you get up and do something.

Long time no see....

I'm sorry that I haven't posted in a while... I had planned to post twice a week, but you know how plans go. See, I've been getting my shit straight. It's harder than you would think. I'm also working more on my YouTube Channel, and that takes more time than I realized. 

So let's shoot straight for a few minutes. I was getting super frustrated because I had stalled. I mean STALLED. I stayed within the same 4 lbs for 2 months. I hate that! But in searching for the reason why, and talking with all my smart friends, I discovered something. I needed to check what the hell I was eating. I hadn't been tracking in months, I mean, why would I need to? I'm eating low carb. Pretty much a no brainer, right? No. 

Unfortunately, while I was eating low carb, I was also eating toooooo much! Usually you don't need to track your calories, but most would recommend tracking your food for the sake of keeping an eye on your Macros (Fat, Protein and Carbohydrates). One of my big problems was dry roasted peanuts. They are only 3 net carbs in them (Total Carbs minus Fiber or Sugar Alcohols). However, that's for a 1 oz serving. I was grabbing a bowl, and eating probably 4 or 5 servings, or more. Yikes!

Also, I was nibbling everything at work. I mean, what's to say that these are bad: a little cornbread here, you know, just a pinch, or a few crumbs of cake (from every pan) or a small tiny amount of potatoes..... you get the idea. However, when you take a small portion (lets say enough for a bite) from each pan, and you are cutting 6 pans for the patients, then guess what? You've had 6 bites or about 1 piece. Not to mention all the other things nibbled through out 8 hours. Oh yeah, and eating two meals there on top of it all. So I cut that shit out too. I still eat the two meals, but I don't nibble anymore. It's sooo hard too lol... 

So, as you might remember (unless you are a new reader, in which case, here is the post) I decided after Easter to get my ass in gear for reals. From Jan 1 to Easter, I piddly-farted around and only lost about 7 lbs or so. In 4 months?? Unacceptable. Easter was the turning point. I started walking at work, I started really cutting out crap foods. I lost a few inches, but not really any weight... but that's ok. Then I started eating Low Carb/High Fat. Why am I retelling you all this? It's mostly for me. It's been a long journey. Where am I at today?

This is actually right after I started eating Low Carb/HighFat

Well, I no longer really count Jan 1 as my starting date, even though I did lose a few pounds. I'm counting Easter (well, 4/22 which was a few days later) as my starting date. What has happened since then? I've lost 25 1/4" off my whole body, and I've lost 20 lbs. :) I still have a ways to go, but with you guys cheering me on, I can't go wrong! Thank you all!

Ch-Ch-Ch-CHIA!

Who remembers "the pottery that grows?" I've wanted one for years! The elephant one especially (my love for elephants is a little scary lol). But I have recently been reading that Chia seeds are amazing little dudes with lots to offer! I am really not the best at explaining how amazing these are, so check it out here. 

So why am I telling you this? I am trying to find ways to incorporate Chia seeds into my diet. I really have to. You don't understand. I bought 2 lbs at Sam's Club. They must be used! lol Did I mention a little goes a long way? Most recipes only call for like... a tablespoon or two. 

I am currently playing with different versions of Chia Pudding. It's pretty basic really. You take some coconut (or almond) milk, cocoa powder, sweetener, Chia (of course) and some vanilla and mix. If you want exact portions, let me know, and I will post the actual recipe. I'm also looking at some Chia crackers... I haven't tried them yet, so idk how it will turn out. 

So what about you? Have you tried Chia? What are your thoughts?

Let me know in the comments below!

2 Steps Forward, 1 Step Back

Anyone remember that song? I can't remember the rest, but that is exactly what is going on at the moment. After my last slide (and the one before) I recommitted hardcore, and actually broke my stall, I think. However, while I was at a friends house, circumstances way beyond my control became a great learning experience. 

See, I may have mentioned, I live in Oklahoma. The water from the tap SUCKS here. In my own home, sometimes it smells like bleach, sometimes like sulfur. Always nasty though. So we have filtered water. That's just what you do. So anyway, we go to a friends house, we were running late, so I didn't have a drink with me (I usually take tea). I have also been stricken with allergies for the last few weeks, so my throat is sore and I've been coughing a lot. 

Needless to say, I needed to drink something. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place. Water (so strongly smelling of bleach that I actually checked under the counter to make sure there wasn't a spill) and Pepsi, my arch-nemesis. *SIGH* Ya'll, I went for the Pepsi. We were there for several hours, so I actually had 3 altogether. I'm not proud, but I'm also not trying to make excuses either. It happened, and now I have to move on.

But what that did to me the next day (yesterday) is that it made me crave crap! I ended up not being prepared with my diet, and decided to eat a bunch of crud. Potatoes being the worst of it. I don't know how this will affect me, scale wise, but I am aware of it, and I need to proceed with caution. 

The next few days will be a battle, but I'm prepared to face it. But as I said, I've learned from this experience! No matter what I do, I need to have my own drink with me, that way I won't be stuck in this situation again! Lesson Learned!

I hope you all have a good Monday! Let's crush this week, shall we? Take it, and make it our own!

Slide..... Again?!

So... here we go again... another story about how my fraking willpower is non-existent. I have no clue what is going on with me guys! I start my week out smooth, and then just *BLAM* Hand me some damn carbs. I will say that this time, I didn't gain (Shocked? ME TOO!). However, I will never lose weight if I keep cheating. I started over again today. Only one slip up, but not a full on slide into carb evil.

Here's to accountability!

Middle Earth Update

So, I wasn't intending on writing anything today, since I had just posted a few days ago, but I thought "what the hell, I want to share my progress" lol. So here we go!

Strider (aka Aragorn) scouts ahead and finds an elf-stone on The Last Bridge. He believes it is a token of safety. Company crosses the River Hoarwell/Mitheithel.

I have officially reached the Last Bridge. I have 100 miles to go before I reach Rivendell, which I hope to achieve in September. 

So far, since May 1st, I have walked 358.1 miles. Isn't that just freaking astounding??? I can't even believe it! Thank you so much for coming along with me!

Weeeeee!

Did I just slide into bad habits for a few days? Yes. Did I regret it? Hell yes. 

Here's the scoop: Last Saturday, after eating LCHF all day, my hubby and I went to go eat sushi. I love sushi. I knew I had been good all day, so I could splurge my carbs on some yummy yummy deliciousness. And I did. And it was amazing. Sushi is just.... just..... mmmmmmmmmm

But then, on Sunday, after being good for the whole morning into afternoon, I had to go to a function for my daughter. It took a long time. So long, in fact, that my dear sweet hubby decided to order pizza for delivery for dinner. I was tired that day (worked from 5am to 1:30pm) and he says "I didn't know what to do, so I ordered. What are you going to eat for dinner?" I understand. He was being thoughtful for himself and the kids, and for me so I didn't have to cook. And being brain dead like I was... I said "Duh... pizza." yeah... duh.

On Monday, I was feeling sick (carbs do not sit well with me anymore), and I wasn't in a caring mood. I ate some corn bread that I had made for the facility, and I was eating this cheesecake stuff. I actually thought that was LCHF approved, because when I last made it, it was just cream cheese, heavy whipping cream and splenda... but NO! Whoever had made it had done half splenda, half powdered sugar. So, I had been unknowingly shoveling sugar in my face for hours... on top of the corn bread. I didn't care though... I was tired. For dinner, it was red beans and rice. Yes, I ate that too. 

3 days. Just 3 little days. And I gained 5lbs. REALLY!!??? 5 fucking lbs! *Spastic freak out ensued*

So... Tuesday morning, I wiped my tears, mentally slapped myself in the face and told myself to get my shit together. I started all over again with my LCHF eating. Made sure to not stray so much as an iota off my path. It was hard.... so hard to do again. This time, I got leg cramps and a little bit flu-y (is that even a word? It is now...). I didn't get that the first time round, although most do. It just really drove it home that I don't need to go through this again. 

Sure, we all slip up. We all have a little bit of what we aren't supposed to... but when you let it go for a few days, it's more than just a little slip up. It's the start of a full blown back slide. You can either let it happen, or take control. Thankfully, I didn't let my old self out of the trunk that I've stuffed the fat bitch into, and I took control. Who needs cheesecake and rice and junk? Not I!

So, it's been a week since that fateful sushi date. I've dropped the 5lbs I gained through stupidity, and hopefully I will continue my (slowly) ever downward decent in weight.

Thanks for being there to listen... if you stayed this long... it was a long post today lol, I would understand if you couldn't hang. :)